The Perks of Being Myself



*Trilha sonora do post: Who Needs Answers - Tiago Iorc*

"So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them." - The Perks of Being a Wallflower (Stephen Chbosky)

I am glad that I stood up after every single time I fell apart. I gathered all my pieces, I glued my heart, I fought against those who wanted who I was not, I patched holes inside of me. I almost lost myself - for real, for madness - but this "almost" made me stronger.

I am glad that I am alive. I am glad for all the times that I was stronger than the desire of disappear. Or the desire of dying. Against all the odds, I am here. Right here. I've been through loneliness, abandonment, rejections, crises of anguish, detachment - but I am here.

And, all of a sudden, everything seems just right. In their right places. And I find myself wondering that all worth it. All that I become worth it.  

"That was the amazing part. Thing just keep going. We didn't talk about anything heavy or light. We were just together. And that was enough."  - The Perks of Being a Wallflower (Stephen Chbosky)

Today was just a regular day. I worked, I ate, I talked to my dearest ones, I just was here. Then, came that moment when I was walking on the street, feeling the heat coming down on me and waiting for the storm to come (I love to wait for the rain) and  I smiled.

And I guess that when you smile in some totally random day, it means that you are really happy.
And today I thought that it was a great thing keep living, because the better days are here. With me.

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