*Trilha sonora do post: Down is the new up - Radiohead*
I feel this endless emptiness inside of me. It's like a hole, flooding my veins with darkness and tragedy. I try to swim back to the top of me, getting rid of this black substance that sucks my hapiness, but sometimes - more times than I'd like - I can't be strong enough.
And I just watch myself falling apart, in small pieces of me, all over the bed. I just watch the darkness coming, whispering my secret fears in my damaged ears, pointing his little gun to my head and blowing away my best thoughts.
Then, there's no hope, no peace, no joy, no Summer. With my eyes open, or my eyes closed, all I'm able to see is a creepy night around me.
So, I wait.
I wait for better days. Days when I'll be the stronger version of myself. When I'll be able to laugh more, and my heart will be healed, and I'll let all the traumas behind me - not inside of me.
I wait for the day that I won't need any kind of salvation.
I don't want to anybody to save me. I just want someone to take care of me, while I'm trying to save myself. And, when I don't remember anymore how life can be pretty and full of sun and Summer, please, leave a note for me and say that everything is gonna be warmer very soon.
'Cause it's very cold in here.
Do you see, that sunbeam in the garden?
Take me by the hand. Take me there.
I need to recharge my stupid heart.
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